Days can be challenging. Overwhelm and frustration can pile up, grief and despair erode comfort and hope, entropy churns on. At a certain point, as Friday afternoon approaches, there can be a rush to wrap up and a yearning for relief. This is a time-based technology of the work week. There is also the Jewish time-tradition of Shabbat that invites relief. It is a merciful offering – to rest, to put down your burdens. It is also a mighty discernment: the work is over, it cannot proceed.
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Still Silent Spring
Stillness can be found in motion
The balance of yin-yang in contrast to the gray energy of apathy
The stillness of candlelight in a peaceful room
The equinoxes
Moments of balanced day and night, a specific point in spaces at one time but also a range of times representing a particular arrangement in space
There’s a balance of endings and of beginnings
Of calamities and of blessings
Of fulfillment and of utmost grief
“It’s all about the balance.”
So when high, recall low
When low, cherish high
When lost, feel found
And when home, know outward bounds
“What if my perspective at home were as if I were camping? What an incredible camp site! Tap water!”
All happening, everything everywhere all at once
The glaciers, the factory discharge
The newlings, the loving creativities
The oppressions, the mutual aid and liberations
The ending and the too late
New beginnings forever
“This too shall pass.”
“There are two paths:
Path A: The end of The World.
Path B: The beginning of The Next.”
Stillness can be found in motion
The balance of yin-yang in contrast to the gray energy of apathy
“It’s all about the balance.”
Stock Suspicion: What is the Stock Market Appreciating?
Content warning: systems collapse, global economics, food-water-energy nexus
One of the many hyperobjects that define the polycrisis we are in
Is the stock market
Which through many calamaty, trends ever upward
What is the appreciation
appreciating?
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“It feels like the markets are more irrational then ever and driven by tens of trillions in capital moving around, this is money is cash in hand and insulated from real consequences in the world so not reacting as it should.”
“A few years ago I heard an economist talk about “excess money sloshing around in the system, chasing a profit”. The image has stuck with me, seems to fit really well”
“The stock market is unrealistically insulated. We’ll likely never see a true depression again but just a series of recessions propped up by the 1%.”
“Passive investing has taken perhaps too large a share of the market, making flows less reactionary. When you have XX hundred billion(s) flowing in every month on loop not hard to see where appreciation comes from.”
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Continue reading →Drink
Drink lots of water
Drink so much that it flows through you
So that you often have to pee – with glee, release your wastes
So that you calibrate to thirstiness – yes, thirst, drink deeply of life
Drink so much water that you remember
“I am mostly made of water”
“I am a water vessel”
“I am a flowing being, not a rigid body”
No thing is static
Everything flows
All vibrates
Water passes through you
You are not a rigid body
You are a flowing vessel
Passing by
Passing away
This too shall pass
Drink lots of water
Flow
Grow
Go, drink deeply of life
THE NEXT BREATH: a Memento Mori for Sobriety
Are you ready?
To receive
To be response able
Not to be taken for granted
Aspired aspirations, who knows the world to come?
The cats are ready
Calm like they’re waiting
Careful like they’re knowing
Unknowing,
Steady, ready for what’s next
What’s one’s life like? Breathing
Something low and guttural
Something sharp and high pitched
A rough and chaotic trough
A flat and orderly sequence of peaks, plateaus
An enrichment and spreading (inhale)
An exhaustion and discard (exhale)
The discard, one’s life
Food for branching trees
Forestablishing what’s next
Where will the waves go?
Where will the ripples flow?
For a brief time one holds then passes or drops the ball
The ball passes on to the next
Through the next
The ball goes and leaves another
Lost, rediscovered
The ball hits the next, bounces, finds an other
Each ball a single note in a grand Song
Forming Family, in the greatest sense
Are you ready?
For the next breath,
What’s next?
Now,
Is it savoring?
Is it stewarding?
Forestablishingalivablefuturity
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TENUOUS: what will be?
Is tomorrow guaranteed? What will the future bring? What song should we sing?
Interstellar object I3/Atlas is currently at its perihelion, or closest point to our Sun at approximately 1.36AU. Among the anomalies associated with this comet-like object, its approach is unlikely: It has been hidden from Earth’s view by the Sun’s glare throughout October (though some scientific reports in review claim to have observed the object’s emissions despite solar glare). This occulted segment of its long trip is also its most opportune time to make orbital adjustments to its own direction or for any probes it could dispatch, using the gravity of our Sun to assist. All this and other unmentioned anomalies to say: while unlikely, there is some cautious speculation that this is a technologic object, directed by an Alien Intelligence (AI).
And I say that to ask: If an alien vessel were in our backyard today and, perhaps at this moment, sending probes our way – for what purpose, one can only speculate – what would one do? Even if that were a fact, there is still much uncertainty.
Not commenting on likelihood, but hypothetically: If it were the case that alien intelligence was in our backyard this moment, close and unseen, then these moments would feel tenuous. What would one do? Savor, I suppose. It is risky and significant enough that squandering time would be easier to recognize as foolish. But it would be uncertain and inspiring enough to not throw one into despair and defeatism.
If one was known to have only a week to live, unlike in this uncertain scenario, then I imagine ‘savoring time’ would look uniquely scarce and conclusive: skipping chores, saying goodbyes, focusing fully on favorites. In contrast, with uncertainty of what the world two months later looks like, it is wise both to savor and also to steward. Take care of one’s future but also do not expect one’s future is guaranteed. Do the dishes, while remembering the precious ephemerality of it all. Savor, and also steward.
This kind of tenuousness, a liminal existential space, could be healthy. A reminder, a reorientation, that we only ever exist Here Now.
How will one Be when it arrives,
What’s Next
Moment by moment
Building momentum
What's the best next step?
May peace be up on you!
#BeHereNow #BreatheEasy #OneLove
SPINNING: Wise Use of One’s Time
What makes one whole?
What does one want to hold?
What’s one’s world?
Through what whirls does one grow?
I know
Some of the things I strive towards (O Sol,)
Health
Comfort, or how would I explain x Y z etc. tendencies
Family fulfillment
Self fulfillment, actually, actualization,
And what is that?
Now how do I&I’s behaviors favor or farther those goals?
Is it comfort that dopamine addictions satisfy, or is it joy I truly pursue, or
Does X Y Z even spark joy?
A toy can spark joy, sure
But all inter-net and no outdoor play makes Jack a dull boy, for shore
(It’s all about the balance)
We must set out to see, what may become
Best next steps, mistakes and lessons, and then the next ones
Left right left
Forward and backward and the only way back is ahead
And up and down and
Four elements spinning all around
A Cube of Space
And so I start at the top
Based on the bottom
I&I see the patterns
One zooms in on the particulars
Pulsing, ventricular, it’s
(a scroll read & reread non stop)
Peace
Peace
Peace
One Love
GROW: I, Tree
Grow
Upward
Toward One’s higher self
Sunbound
Obstacle
Higher Self
Adjust, adapt
Not ambitious,
Actualizing
Self becoming
So(u/i)l fulfilling
Role filling
Niche needing
Now embodied
Reciprocate
Grow the gifts
Heights, rights
Canopy crown leader
Power
Photons become energy become matter become life become photons
Emit
Mature
Canopy co-dominance
Contribute
Seed community
Past and future unity
Earth and sky, one pillar
Emerge
Knew, continue
I&I: You
Gon’ higha
Grow
Three questions to practice
Why/how?
So what?
What does my higher self say?
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Is it true?
Is it kind?
Is it necessary?
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How does this contribute to my sol missions? (It’s only a matter of Time)
Is it appropriate time, place, extent? (A place for everything, everything in its place)
What are the consequences? (Observe)
AND FOR MY LAST ACT
What if this was my final act?
This moment, this action
What’s happening at this breath?
Reading this post?
Well, at least you’re not listening to an Exxon advertisement
If that is the kind of thing you’re exposed to
How we spend our time is affected by the systems around us
Where we are, when we are, much of that beyond us
Under the stars
Here now
Spinning mightily on this big beautiful blue planet
Evolving alongside fellow lifeforms,
It does appear we have some choices within our purview
For if this was my final act,
It was I who chose to be typing at this moment, isn’t it?
Chose in that it arose in my clothes and genes and experiences
And it will be I who lives with, and ends with, that moment
Each moment a new beginning, potentially
Moment to moment
To momentum and beyond
(What’s the best next step?)
(What’s the f(x)?)
With love
What if this was my final act?
Practicing qi’gong, East or West
Perhaps singing a song
Or listening
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שְׁמַע
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Taking It All In
One Self
Actualizing
Actual I’s in the vicinity of
Temple
Peace, peace, peace, One Love